Finding My Voice Again

I could apologize for the lapse in blogging, but I'll just leave things where they lie.  I've been struggling lately, I'm so over the moon about wedding planning and where things are at in school, but I can't silence this feeling that I'm losing my 'voice' of my blog.  I don't want this blog to turn into a wedding planning or grad school bitching only kind of blog.  I think I'm just trying to figure out where this is going, and how it all fits together. 

Things are also so all over the place with fiance's career.  He was selected for some really special training, and I'm nervous where this path will take us.  At the same time, we're waiting on news of a promotion and the accompanying course.  There are so many good things in our lives right now, and I just need to keep on recognizing how blessed we are, and let the limbo continue. 

I don't know if it's still adjusting to this new phase in my life, one where I am actually mostly excited about the Army and where things are going, or if I am still waiting on the other shoe to drop with wedding planning.  I'm TERRIFIED that we will go through all these steps and have the Army change our plans last minute.  A military clause has been added to all contracts and thankfully everyone has been really understanding.  We were really trying for a memorial day weekend wedding, but everywhere was all booked up.  We officially set the date of May 18th, 2013, at the venue we both loved (335 days to go!).  So far, I'm just chugging ahead trying to navigate family wants and what we want our day to be like as a couple. 

On the wedding front: venue- check! Bridal party- check! and that's about it, ha! I've been doing lots of research, so once fiance comes out of the field and goes on 2 week block leave we'll be hitting the ground running together.  Photographer, DJ, registry, cake, finalized guest list, and save the dates are on our to-do list.  Here is to hoping things come together. 

Maybe some 'me time' to get back into the swing of things will help with finding my voice again.  I'm just getting started on my LAST summer semester with classes so hopefully I can get into a routine and find myself again.